Losing My Mind!

  Today has been a long day in just a little while this morning. Today is a lesson on how crappy your kids can make you feel. I might have had a little bit of a blow out with my girls today. When my husband tells them to do something they do it without complaining too much and they actually do it. When I tell them to do something they have to sit there and complain and pout and when it comes down to it, never end up doing it. Well I finally had enough today. I told them that they weren't allowed to watch TV or play with toys or anything until they can explain to me why they listen and do what Daddy says, but they won't do what I say. The only thing they could come up with is that I need to give them more consequences and be harder on them. I always tried not to be too hard on them because I don't want to be like my mom was.  Also when we had my Brother-in-law, his wife and their 3 kids all staying with us they kept telling my husband how I was being TOO hard on the kids. That I needed to figure out how to deal with them without being so hard on them. Well apparently that isn't working either. So now I am confused and need to figure out what everyone wants me to do. I am at my wits end and I am feeling really horrible about myself and trying to figure out how I can be a good mother when I can't even get my own kids to listen to anything I say? I feel like there is no reason for me to be here and be around when I can't even get my kids to listen to me or behave. I want to just curl up and hide for about a week and not have anyone asking why I didn't have the kids do the things they are supposed to and have anyone ignoring me. Just hide and do whatever I want.

Long day with SNOW

It has been a long day. I did work on the blanket a little bit, but I really didn't make much progress on much else today. It snowed and was crappy out all day and school got out early so it was a house full of kids and me and the Hubby. No real way for anyone to get out much today. So kids were just getting on my nerves. I am hoping that it's better out tomorrow so 2 out of 3 kids can be gone at school all day and the Hubby can go to work. Don't get me wrong I love my husband and my kids, but I need time without a houseful to do things that I need and want to do. I am really hoping that tomorrow goes better then today.

So Many Projects

Well, since I have been on here I have so many different projects going on all at once. I had a son about a year and a half ago and I started a blanket for him before he was born. Ya, needless to say it's not done yet. I am getting close though. I have become friends with the wonderful ladies of the church the kids go to Kids Club at, and one of them had a spare sewing machine that she let me borrow. So that helped me to make a lot of progress on it in a shorter period of time. Now if I can make the initiative to finish the last I need to do to finish before Christmas time. Time is running out on that one. So I need to really sit down and work on it when the kids go to bed and quit putting it off so much.

Starting up again

Okay I am going to try and start this up again. Hopefully one of these times I can keep up with this and not leave such long gaps in the posting on here. Wish me luck.