Losing My Mind!

  Today has been a long day in just a little while this morning. Today is a lesson on how crappy your kids can make you feel. I might have had a little bit of a blow out with my girls today. When my husband tells them to do something they do it without complaining too much and they actually do it. When I tell them to do something they have to sit there and complain and pout and when it comes down to it, never end up doing it. Well I finally had enough today. I told them that they weren't allowed to watch TV or play with toys or anything until they can explain to me why they listen and do what Daddy says, but they won't do what I say. The only thing they could come up with is that I need to give them more consequences and be harder on them. I always tried not to be too hard on them because I don't want to be like my mom was.  Also when we had my Brother-in-law, his wife and their 3 kids all staying with us they kept telling my husband how I was being TOO hard on the kids. That I needed to figure out how to deal with them without being so hard on them. Well apparently that isn't working either. So now I am confused and need to figure out what everyone wants me to do. I am at my wits end and I am feeling really horrible about myself and trying to figure out how I can be a good mother when I can't even get my own kids to listen to anything I say? I feel like there is no reason for me to be here and be around when I can't even get my kids to listen to me or behave. I want to just curl up and hide for about a week and not have anyone asking why I didn't have the kids do the things they are supposed to and have anyone ignoring me. Just hide and do whatever I want.