Slow Day

For anyone who read the previous post you know that things kind of went downhill last night after my husband got home from work. Well, my mood from yesterday kind of carried through to today. Plus my husband was a little snippy with me when he woke up this morning. Then calls me after he was on his way to work to tell me that I need to make a cake today for my brother-in-law. It's his birthday today. Yes I understand that it's his birthday and it's nice to get a cake and all. But this year no one here made me a cake. My mom came down to visit me and the girls and bought an already made cake the day after my birthday. Then last year there was no cake at all. The one that was supposed to be one of my best friends that was living with us at the time, didn't even remember my birthday till late that night after someone said something about it. That really hurt. So I am not in the best of moods today. With everything that has been going on lately, and the way I have been treated the past few days, I am basically in a depressed mood. So I am going to admit that I might not get much done today with the house. I am just not in the mood to do much today. I know, I know, part of being a good homemaker is to suck it up, put on a happy face and move on with the day. But I will admit that I am an emotional person. I cry easy even if I don't let people see it. My feelings can get hurt easy. I mean, I bust my butt every day all day long working on the house, taking care of the kids and doing just about everything that my husband and brother-in-law ask. And what do I get? My husband trying to act like a big man in front of his dad joking that our daughter listens about as well as her mother (she wasn't listening well that day). I know he wasn't meaning to be serious that I don't listen to him, but it still hurt to be told that I don't do what I am asked and don't listen when I do everything that is asked of me (withing reason). My husband used to notice when I would do a thorough cleaning of parts of the house and tell me that I did a good job and the house looks nice. But lately it's just snippy remarks and bad sarcasm and seeming almost as though he's been avoiding me. I don't like it. It makes me feel like I am doing something wrong. That I am messing up all the time somehow, in one way or another, or that I'm not doing a good enough job. I am going to try and suck it up and get more things done today, but I am not making any promises. I feel like crying right now honestly. But that's life I guess. I should get off here though and attempt to get something done today. Figure out what to make for supper and all.