Alot On The Plate

I am still trudging along on the housework. I am going to be getting a little more wore out here in the next few days though. My Husband went to get our 9mo old out of her crib and noticed that there was a bottle in there with her. I know you really shouldn't give a baby a bottle to go to sleep with. But it's the one way that I can get a little extra sleep at night. I rock her to sleep, then if (I mean "when") she wakes up at night, then I would give her a bottle and she would got right back to sleep and therefore so could I. Well he found the bottle and said that we are not going to get her into that habit. She needs to learn that when it's bed time she needs to stay sleeping. But I hate to tell him, even without the bottle at night, she will still wake up at night. Which I don't completely understand with her anyway. She used to sleep through the night. But then when we started her on baby food and rice cereal along with the formula she started waking up at night again. I am not sure why, but she does. Either way, since we are not going to get her into the habit of getting a bottle at night after she's put to bed, I will be up alot more at night trying to get her back to sleep. Last night I think I was up about 4-5 times throughout the night. It was a little rough this morning at 5:30am when I had to get my Husband up and ready for work. But I suppose like everything else, I will eventually get used to it. One thing that I would like to work on for this summer is learning how to can and preserve things. I know my Husband likes to have a garden. But this last year, the slugs were bad for one, so we lost alot, and secondly we didn't get things eaten fast enough so it ended up having to be thrown out. So I want to look into canning and preserving things so we can actually keep them and use them when we need to instead of only a little bit and then having to throw the rest out. Plus it would cut down on groceries a little. There is just so much to do and so many things going through my head the past couple of days that I am not sure how to manage it all. I am kind of to the point of just being out of it lately. I zone out alot. My Husband kept asking me last night, if I was okay, or if there was something wrong. There really isn't anything "wrong" persay, it's just that there is so much going on and so much to do that I am going into robot stage. I am expected to remember everything and take care of everything. So it all falls on my shoulders. Then my Husband and his brother that lives with us, will talk to each other about things that effect the whole house and I am not included in the conversations till they are done talking and have things figured out. Then I get told what I am going to be doing. It's almost as though I don't have much of a say in what I do. I don't know, it's just alot on my plate and not alot of options right now. Just kind of do what I can and keep going I guess.

Catching Up Slowly

Well I have been slowly working on things and the house is getting a little better and staying that way longer then it used to. I was hoping to have a little more time with the Husband this weekend, but of course that's not going to happen. We got to spend a little bit of time together today. But not much. But he did spend a decent amount of time with our 5 year old, which is good. They don't get to spend much time together either. But tomorrow he will be getting up early in the morning to go and help his brother and his dad out with some hauling thing that they're doing. So we won't really see him tomorrow. But I suppose I can use that time to get stuff done around the house here with him being gone. As long as I don't let myself get distracted too much. That's one of my biggest problems. I get distracted easily when no one else is here at times. I spend too much time on Facebook, or CafeMom, or sitting around watching episodes of Desperate Housewives. But I am getting better though. I do manage to shut it off part way through an episode and get moving on working on the house. Hopefully I can get better at not screwing up too. I have been doing that alot lately. I somehow managed to lose 2 black hills gold lockets that my Husband and my 5 year old had given to me a couple different Christmas'. I am not sure how I managed to lose them, but I did. They aren't where I remember putting them last and I haven't been able to find them yet. My Husband told me not to get too worked up about it because there are alot more important things then necklaces. But I can't help but feel bad about it. Then I made some flavored coffee in the coffee maker and didn't wash it out good enough I guess. Because when he went to drink his coffee this morning he could taste a little of the flavoring in it. Then here, just a min ago he asked me to make him some more koolaid. Well, he likes the orange koolaid, only a little less strong then most. Well I couldn't make it the way we usually do because I accidentally grabbed Tang last time I went to get some instead of orange koolaid. I just can't seem to do much right lately. Hopefully things start to get better. Wish me luck.

Break In the Updates

To start out, I would like to apologize for the break in the updates. We had lost our internet here for a couple of days, so I was unable to get online to do anything. But then, to look at it in a possitive way, it wasn't necessarily a bad thing. It was one less distraction in the housework and the homemaker process. The other day I was really unable to do anything around the house other then do my best to take care of the baby. This weekend I ended up getting sick on Sun. We had gone to the birthday party for a friend's daughter. When we got home, I couldn't hold it in any longer. So needless to say I was not feeling well. But a woman's work is never done though. I still got supper for my 5 year old while my Husband watched one of his TV shows that he likes. Along with dealing with a baby that had bad teething diapers and so she had a very red butt. I did get better and my baby is also doing better. But when I was getting better, my husband called while he was at work and informed me that he was getting sick. So my days have been pretty full around here and they're not going to get better yet. I have spent the last couple days taking care of my husband like he was one of the kids. He wraps up on the couch and I do what he asks of me. So that is almost a full time job in itself. So I have been taking care of him and the baby and the 5 year old and the house for the past couple of days. This morning he went to work, but my brother-in-law came home from work this morning because he's not feeling good now. So, even if my husband isn't here, I still might have a full time job. But the house is getting better, so hopfully I can keep it up till I get it completely overhauled and then it should be just basic pick up and stuff to keep it looking nice and I might actually find time for myself before midnight. But then again, that is the joyful life of a Homemaker. Hope everyone who follows and reads this is doing well.

More Overwhelming

Well I need to sit down and do some organizing and figuring on things here. I need to figure out a way to not get so overwhelmed with everything, get everything done, have time with my husband and kids and still have some down time as well. The past couple of days my Husband has been adding things that he wants me to do on a daily basis. I am also thinking that even though he doesn't want me doing it, because it's the man's job, I am going to have to take out the garbage. I have bagged it up and set it in the hallway by the entryway door, and it has sat there for about 3-4 days now. I am tired of it sitting there. I am not sure why they see it as so hard to grab a bag as they're on their way out the door and drop it in the garbage can which is right outside the door. So I am not sure how I am going to juggle everything and have any time to do anything else other then clean and take care of my two kids, my husband and his brother that lives with us. So I have been looking into the FLYLady thing. I have been told that it's really good and have read some testimonials of people who it really seemed to work for. So if I could impliment it into my routine and stick to it, it might help me to get the house clean, keep it clean and have time to work on all the other things that my Husband wants me to get done every day. I just get so overwhelmed and upset so easy when I constantly have him and others always coming up to me and telling how I should be doing this and doing that every day. When they don't have anything extra to do other then their out of the home job. Yes I understand that I am the housewife/homemaker and it's my job to take care of the home and everything. But that doesn't mean that they can keep piling on more things for me to do on a daily basis, then come home and ask why I didn't get things done. Then I feel worse because I worked my butt off getting done what I could, wore out, sore back and feet and feel bad that I didn't get the things done they wanted. Plus I feel like I have no reason to say anything about being sore when they are out working with cows or at a factory on their feet and stuff all day. I feel like they have more of a right to be sore and vocalize it then I do. I feel like I should just paint on a smile, nod my head and say yes I see, I am sorry you feel like that, is there anything I can do? And do what I can to forget about my soreness and exhaustion. That's what I feel like lately. But yet I still keep getting things piled onto my plate of things to do. Will it ever get easier? I hope so.

Wake Up Call

I have been doing my best here as a newbie in the Homemaker business. I thought I was making decent progress. I have been for the most part keeping up with the housework portion of it. The main time that it gets a little slacked on is when I am sitting with the 8mo old when she's not feeling good or when I am not feeling very well. But even then I try to at least do a little bit when I can. But I got a slap in the face yesterday on the housekeeping part of the job. I was watching a friend's 3 year old for them yesterday so they could go get a haircut and do some other things without having to have their daughter tagging along and trying to get into things. No big deal for me because I have watched her before and she is usually good for me anyway. She wasn't bad this time either, but she sure made me feel like a horrible housekeeper/homemaker. She was sitting there playing while I was taking the Christmas tree down and looks at me and says, "You need to clean your house." I couldn't believe it. I was in shock that a 3 year old told me I needed to clean my house. I knew that it wasn't in the greatest shape at the time because I had woke up with a cold the day before and my husband didn't really want me doing anything because I felt like crap. But I didn't think it was that bad. I know I shouldn't take what a 3 year old says too personally. But the way I look at it is if a 3 year old thinks it's messy then it has to be bad. That just makes me feel like I am doing a horrible job. So I started yesterday doing what I could while she was here and then kept going after she left. I started cleaning. Even though I felt like crap with my cold and all I started in on it good. I moved all the furnature in the livingroom and dining room and vacuumed all in those rooms. I picked up all the toys which of course got spread back out again. Washed all the dishes that were there last night. Pulled out everything under the oven. I pulled the whole drawer out and washed it out and washed all the pans that were in it. While I had the drawer pulled out I moved the whole stove itself and cleaned the floor that was under it. Washed all the clothes that were in the laundry room. I was on a role. I tell you what, even though I wasn't able to do my fitness DVD yesterday I am sure I got a work out anyway. I was so sore and sweaty by the time I decided to call it quits for the day. My body is still a little achy today. But I have ALOT more to do still around this house to get into tip top shape. I am hell bend on doing a complete, thorough, top to bottom cleaning of this house no matter how long it takes. I will have to take a little time off tomorrow bacause I have to run some errands in town. But aside from that and tending to the kids and making supper, I am going to be on house cleaning duty. All I know is by the time I am done with it all, I might be asking the husband for a total body massage. I am sure I will need it.