Alot On The Plate

I am still trudging along on the housework. I am going to be getting a little more wore out here in the next few days though. My Husband went to get our 9mo old out of her crib and noticed that there was a bottle in there with her. I know you really shouldn't give a baby a bottle to go to sleep with. But it's the one way that I can get a little extra sleep at night. I rock her to sleep, then if (I mean "when") she wakes up at night, then I would give her a bottle and she would got right back to sleep and therefore so could I. Well he found the bottle and said that we are not going to get her into that habit. She needs to learn that when it's bed time she needs to stay sleeping. But I hate to tell him, even without the bottle at night, she will still wake up at night. Which I don't completely understand with her anyway. She used to sleep through the night. But then when we started her on baby food and rice cereal along with the formula she started waking up at night again. I am not sure why, but she does. Either way, since we are not going to get her into the habit of getting a bottle at night after she's put to bed, I will be up alot more at night trying to get her back to sleep. Last night I think I was up about 4-5 times throughout the night. It was a little rough this morning at 5:30am when I had to get my Husband up and ready for work. But I suppose like everything else, I will eventually get used to it. One thing that I would like to work on for this summer is learning how to can and preserve things. I know my Husband likes to have a garden. But this last year, the slugs were bad for one, so we lost alot, and secondly we didn't get things eaten fast enough so it ended up having to be thrown out. So I want to look into canning and preserving things so we can actually keep them and use them when we need to instead of only a little bit and then having to throw the rest out. Plus it would cut down on groceries a little. There is just so much to do and so many things going through my head the past couple of days that I am not sure how to manage it all. I am kind of to the point of just being out of it lately. I zone out alot. My Husband kept asking me last night, if I was okay, or if there was something wrong. There really isn't anything "wrong" persay, it's just that there is so much going on and so much to do that I am going into robot stage. I am expected to remember everything and take care of everything. So it all falls on my shoulders. Then my Husband and his brother that lives with us, will talk to each other about things that effect the whole house and I am not included in the conversations till they are done talking and have things figured out. Then I get told what I am going to be doing. It's almost as though I don't have much of a say in what I do. I don't know, it's just alot on my plate and not alot of options right now. Just kind of do what I can and keep going I guess.